Regret

"Ever felt regretful about your decisions? " my teacher asked me all I could do was nod agreeing that yes I have regreted decisions in my life but when I come to think of it I've regreted almost every decision isn't it easier if someone else would just pick the choices so that in the end if it doesn't work out they are blamed instead of us.

Maybe that's why we were so carefree when we were kids.We had to ask our parents to make decisions for us yes it was embarrassing at times and maybe even for something downright silly but atleast we didn't have the pressure to always be right with our instincts. I sometimes even feel that I'm really naive cause I don't realise the difference between being spontaneous and being rash and that has caused the most amount of harm through the years. Be it trusting a good friend , believing that things could work out and especially with my self destruction issues.I just feel that maybe someone would just volunteer and take my decisions for me so that I can escape regret but just like love you cannot escape regret. At some point of time in your life you will endure it be it when you are sixteen and all you regret are the people you've let in your life or you are ninety and all you regret is not spending enough time with your family.

I just wish instead of keeping my head on someones shoulder or holding someones hand basically without anyone else's support I could learn to deal with regret alone so that I know that yes I am capable of overcoming such an emotion all by myself without a soul by my side not that I'm building a wall around myself but just to see if a person like me can do it alone.

Alamelu.