F.I.N.E

This four letter word we all have used at some point of time or other maybe sincerely mostly not. Its sometimes cause we don't want outside help and want to recover by ourselves alone , sometimes we are just not ready to accept the fact that 'yeah there is something that's wrong in my life or in me' and most of the times we just lie with our poker faces on secretly hoping someone figures it out that yes I am dying inside and this is my silent prayer for help for hope and that that person that observing soul helps you out of the deep grave you've dug yourself. This word sometimes breaks people into a gazilion pieces and hardens the sweetest of the people I've known , it has made them accept harsh reality within themselves but don't want to share the same with others the fear it has brought them , the fear that if and when they lie about what they are feeling what if someone doesn't care enough to dig deeper to find out the truth? or mostly they are just scared to tell people about what they have been through ! what if someone thinks they are downright crazy or what if society doesn't accept them at all, things like these have made a perfectly normal british conversational ender into the most confusing conversational ender . As in you can't figure it out sometimes whether the person is lying or is truly genuine sometimes you ignore the ones needing your help and go bug the one's who are actually and truly fine all because the people wearing the poker faces are just that good.
So all I'd like to say is that if you genuinely need help ask for it cause you are not alone believe me 'been there done that' but if you find that silent observing soul who knows what you are feeling without you smearing off your *Im fine face* you my friend have found --your person-- be it your best friend , your soul mate or your family, but remember that at some point of time you have to let go and break down, you may not realise it then but it will make you better.

Alamelu