You

When I'm in your arms,
Time is an illusion.

My demons urge me to fear.
But they don't know dear,
You are the reason for my sanity.
You are the reason I'm here.

Alamelu.

Disconnected

In this world where humans are known to be social animals we too sometimes feel disconnected from the world.

Distance separates us,
So does time.
I feel forgotten ,
But that's not a crime.

Looking at the memories,
Of the bygone years.
It feels like a century,
Since we were near.

All that I got from you,
Your love, attention and care.
Feels no more to be true.
I feel disconnected and bare.

I wish this could continue,
A happily ever after.
I lack the courage to bid adieu.
I fear the silence of laughter.

Alamelu.

New Title

Hey as I said I'm back more often and yes I changed the tittle and rightfully so ever since I woke up today morning I could think of nothing but this ! I have no idea how it infiltrated my mind while I was asleep but now its stuck and its quirky enough for me .

The name itself ' Gola Diaries ' comprises two of my most understanding companions till now ! Golas have always been associated with the beach and me being a Mumbai girl have never been able to forsake it for anything . Ever since I was a little girl in the 2nd grade I used to save my pocket money and secretly have gola after school so that my mom doesn't reprimand me for it , it was a secret pleasure I used to share with noone. As I grew up my fondness for it kept on growing , no matter how bad things seemed one gola from Chowpatty and the road ahead seemed a little smoother ,as if it had made all the difference.
And when it comes to diaries let me be honest I've tried keeping one many a times till now but have failed miserably so now I just jot down things when I feel I want those thoughts to live beyond me also diaries signifies books to me , thanks to my parents who inculcated the habit of reading since I was a toddler , books have been my special friend and even now they are always priority.

And now I guess I know why I re-named it and I couldn't be happier.

Ps: I just read 'The Fault In Our Stars' a month back in e-book form even so I bought hard copy because it instantly became one of my favourites. A book which should top teenagers bucket list!.

Alamelu

Been a while..

Hey everyone I know its been a long while since I posted anything but it was because of my 12th boards that I got engrossed in my academics that I had very less time for anything else.

But now I am back for real with a lot of new ideas and a fresh perspectives so keep on reading .

ps: I reached so many views that I missed my landmark number and I'm going to do my best to keep you posted oh, and another surprise I'm thinking about starting my own youtube channel what do you think ?

Be back soon

Alamelu.

To feel.

Is it good that we are humans and not machines?
Is it good that we can be conquered by our minds alone?
Is it good that sometimes the pain inflicted upon is unbearable?

This piece is going to be brief about my opinion as to whether being able to feel is a good thing afterall. People of all ages and cultures would agree with me when I say that we are scared , scared to give power to the other individual , scared that they may hurt us with their blunt words or their crude actions. I was of the belief of something close to a fearless eagle that without risks and without taking a chance how would we know ? how would we know if  the person is worthy enough to be a part of our life , whether the pain and happiness inflicted upon us by him/her is comensurate.

I have come to the conclusion that it all depends on you. How much do you want the person in your life ? how much do you love the person? how much does the person mean to you? By answering these not so simple questions you can decide. But the ability to feel is one of the almighty's greatest gift to feel love , hate , warmth and malice are just some of the angels and demons that rule our individual worlds. So go ahead take a chance and feel.

Alamelu.

Outside

So happy and joyful
from your eyes we look.
He feels just delightful
a character from a book.

The ways , the means , the roads that he takes
To punish me for loving him as he is.
I wish no pain befalls him as he rakes
The pieces of my soul and the memories of our first kiss.

We seem perfect to you
You take us to be your guide.
But approach with caution this bond
As you've only seen us from outside.

Alamelu

(purely fictional)

Illusion

Black clouds are drawing near,

Thunder and lightning bark.

Suddenly you appear, 

As if from a spark.

You remain awhile,

Unperturbed and calm.

The rains bring about a change,

You no longer need the strength from my palms.

The downpour continues,

As you look to stay.

But like everything in this world,

The torrents push us further away.

The smell of newly wet ground,

Comforts me deep within.

It leaves me with an illusion.

That we may actually win.

Alamelu.